Genesis 3:17 “…cursed is the ground for your sake…”
God spoke to me Sunday morning. It was in His usual way of laying out thoughts from nowhere. He said the struggle is normal and necessary, and why did I think any differently.
I was leaving the retirement community where I visit a couple of times a month and thinking about the same things I usually think about after a visit. Did I do any good? Am I doing what I’m supposed to be doing in the ministry? Am I even supposed to be in the ministry or did I get everything wrong? If I’m supposed to be here, why does it still seem so difficult after all this time?
I have officially been in the ministry for twenty-eight years, and except for the youth minister position I held during college, it has all been voluntary. While there is certainly nothing wrong with doing volunteer work, there are some caveats. You have to have other means of financial support, you cannot expect any recognition or sometimes even gratitude, and unfortunately, since you’re not in a church position or classified as a missionary, your work may not be seen as true ministry service. My latest job played out six months ago, some other doors for ministry have recently closed, and lately I’ve had others question whether I was even in the ministry. I tried to share my frustrations with a ministry peer. I thought perhaps he would suggest some other ministry avenues or even offer to mention my name to other ministers. His only response was to suggest that I hadn’t actually been called to speak. Hmm, really? Did you catch the part about doing it for twenty-eight years for nothing?
I’ve been praying about all of this for a while, but one aspect had been weighing heavily on my mind of late. I have a strong passion for teaching and preaching the Word. I love getting into discussions about spiritual things. I receive the most satisfaction and fulfillment when I can help someone understand something from the scripture. So why have I always had such a hard time doing my own reading and studying of the Word? Why do I seem to have to force myself to have quiet time with Him? Why is it so hard to give Christ the preeminence in my life? Where is that passion? Those are the questions God answered.
After Adam sinned, God told him the ground was cursed for Adam’s sake. Part of his punishment was actually for his benefit. How did that work? Because of the fall, all of creation would now be in a downward spiral. All things would move to a state of death. Nothing would improve on its own. Man left to himself would deteriorate until he wasted away. The only way to combat this would be for man to struggle, to fight against the downward pull of his sinful nature.
We are instructed to read, study, and meditate on the Word of God, to learn as much as we can, to make it a part of ourselves. Like a typical man, I saw this as a task to complete, something to work on until it was finished, and for some reason, fully expected the task to become easier as I did it. However, the point has never been about the task, but the results of it, what you gain from doing it. The task itself, having a daily time with God, reading the Word, searching the scriptures, will always be difficult like every other task on this fallen planet. The important part is what we learn from the reading, studying, and searching.
Fortunately, when God spoke, I was still in the driveway of the retirement community so I could pull over and consider what He had said. I felt rather foolish for not seeing the forest for the trees. But I also felt great relief. Getting my focus off the task and on the results has not only relieved some of my anxiety, but it’s also freed up the motivation that was actually there. So strange that the desire I sought was present, just out of sight.
I still have questions about what He wants me to do, why doors aren’t opening, why He is quiet on many things. But I choose to trust Him. And I’ll enjoy the new found sense of purpose in spending more time with Him.
Seems like I’m always in the middle of some mess. I’ve heard you’re either going into a storm, going through a storm, or going out of one. And there’s not much room between going out of one and going into the next. It may be normal for life, but it is taxing on the soul.
At the moment I can’t tell if I’m going in or in the middle. Feels like being in and just getting darker. Guess that’s why I was thinking about Job. All the things he went through without knowing why.
But I remember what God said at the beginning. ”Have you considered My servant.” What an awesome statement! I’d never considered how much hope there is in those words. My servant. Not a servant, or the servant, or even the man. MY servant. Job belonged to Him.
A lot of things were about to happen to Job that he couldn’t explain, but in reality, he belonged to God and that was the best place to be. I know he wasn’t in on that conversation, so he didn’t hear God say that, but that doesn’t change the facts.
How blessed we are to live in our time. Paul said the prophets of old longed to see the things we see. And even the Angels are amazed at the mystery of redemption that is ours. We can see the whole plan of redemption from beginning to end. We know who the Messiah is. We know what He has done. We know He’s coming back. And we have heard Him say that not only are we His servants, but He also considers us friends.
“Well done good and faithful servant.” I’ve always wanted to think that I might hear that someday. But at the moment, “consider My servant” has a much better ring. To know I belong to Him is better than any reward I can imagine.
“A prophet is not without honor except in his own country.”
Why did God not give us more details about Jesus’s early years? After the tale of His birth and a short note about an incident when He was twelve, why does He just spring on the scene?
We would be like the people of His day. We wouldn’t listen because we think we know Him. If we don’t know someone we tend to listen to his message first and then look at the person. We’ll give folks the benefit of the doubt, even if it’s just long enough to hear what they say.
God gave us the best combination with Jesus. He shared Christ’s arrival, His deity, His Lordship with us to establish in our minds that this was the Christ, the Messiah of God, the One foretold in scripture. Then he jumps us forward to the point of hearing Christ’s message without allowing us the chance of creating a false impression derived by our judgment or misconception of events in His life.
Here is the King of the Jews as foretold by the prophets. Here is My Son in whom I am well pleased. Here is My Son; hear Him. Here is My Son dying on the cross for you. Here is My Son, conquering death by rising from the grave.
And one day soon…
HERE IS MY SON! HE HAS RETURNED!
“If My people, which are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray, and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways…” So the LORD said to the people of Israel in II Chronicles 7:14. Because of what Christ did by redeeming us to Himself and grafting us into His family, I believe we can apply these verses to ourselves. More importantly, I believe God has said we can; He will fulfill this promise to us as His children.
But are we understanding the true picture of what is being said? Humble ourselves and pray and seek His face and turn from our wicked ways… A casual reading will lead us to think it means if we realize we need God’s help in fixing our mess, and we humble ourselves enough to ask Him for help, and we ask for His will to be done, and we promise not to do the same things again, then He is obligated to come fix our problems. I’m afraid we’ve missed the first point and thus miss out on everything else.
We must interpret the first point by the last to get on the right track. We must humble ourselves, not to the point of asking for help, but to the point where we realize and acknowledge that we are wicked. We have sinned. We are fully responsible for the mess we are in. And we must be willing to forsake it all. Completely. There must not be any vestige of ourselves or our pride left in our confession. We then pray and seek His face. Not His hands. Not what He can do for us, but God Himself. A relationship with Him. An acknowledgement that we want to continue our lives with Him and not on our terms. Then we will be empowered to truly turn from our wicked ways.
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